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Monday, 29 August 2016
Acting on Impulse
In reference to my post, ‘apologies for the neglect’, my
conclusion of the entry was true.
I was happy, or so I thought for some time. Radical change
in your life can be both a refreshing and exciting thing until you realize that
you had it better before and the change sucked. Why? Because I was bored maybe;
needed a change of scenery or the whole idea of being independent and moving
out of home, being free to go out on a weekday without the judgment of my
grandparents seemed like an offer I could not refuse.
Now nothing bad exactly went down in my life after this
time. There were no dramatic problems turning my life upside down. But I did realize
that the underlying problem I ignored by keeping busy and holding myself back
from dwelling, was in fact me.
I am an impulsive person. I make a decision and rather than
think it over, I go right ahead and do it in the fear that I will change my
mind. But then changing my mind can often be a good thing. And in hindsight, I
wish I had changed my mind, rather than carry out something impulsively and
regrettably without thinking it properly through.
I wonder why I do these things. I don’t know. I give up too quickly, perhaps.
Or maybe I need the change of scenery in order to appreciate my original view.
And my original view had been great. At times it appeared
grey and dark and I didn’t think the rays of the sun would seep back in, but
then again, I didn’t wait for it to either. I gave up, packed up and left, both
my home, and the person who represented every idea I believed a home would feel